TMS

I’ve been meaning to write for a while, but for whatever reason, always seem to find an excuse not to. Or I just write in my actual journal in very messy handwriting and where nothing really makes sense. Just random thoughts strung together as one.

I cannot really promise that this will be any better. But at least it is typed.

Something that I have been trying to do since becoming sober is to be more responsible for my own mood. I know you cannot control your emotions, but you also do not have to let the ruin your life.

For a long time, I have been a passive passenger with my depression driving the car. This past year I’ve had to use my whole strength to hold onto the wheel so that we don’t end up in the ditch.

And finally, I think there is something coming up in my life that might just make it easier to hold on.

TMS. Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation. If you don’t know what TMS is, you aren’t alone. Not that long ago I also didn’t know what it was but I am now about to start the treatment and for the first time in a long time, I feel slightly….. hopeful.